On the topic of marriage

"Oh, you know Jordan? I think he was working earlier today, but his wife might be here still this afternoon."

WIFE?! my ear got stuck on that word, and I knew that's the way it was, of course. To be expected. I wouldn't have expected anything less.

Unfair. unfair. unfair. unfair. Why do I always fall for the unavailable ones? I could just try and stop trying. But I don't think I'd be capable of that. Really. Nope.

gah!

nope.

Recomposing my self I decide to make supper instead of crunching on granola.

It's funny how very short words can change everything:

wife
I do
yes
no
sorry
fired
hired
died
gone
sick
baby


and yet, when we use those words they usually can never express what is really the case. Maybe words are never enough. They aren't. It's not a maybe thing. Words don't work. Sometimes, once in a very rare while, the right combination will make a person cry or laugh, two ways that we can physically know that the words move us. I love when that happens.

except for today.